My ideas have shifted quite a lot since Sunday, you may think it strange, but my brilliant computer (brain) is searching for solutions and it is mind blowing how fast and efficiently these answers are coming! I have done time according to the belief system I was raised with all my life and unless I am willing to shift, I will continue to get the same result.

I dread to think that I may get to my death bed at some age way over 100 and find myself still at war with time and still fighting to get it all fitted in. If the past 40 years are anything to go on, there’s no evidence to say anything will change unless I change first! This last 48 hours I have thought of the space between the minutes. This may sound weird, but many movement experts like ballroom dancers, karate experts and fencers, achieve their success by focusing on the empty space around the objects they wish to avoid. I learnt this from Wendy Palmer an Aikido expert, she made us face a sword which she slashed down at us, and instructed us to avoid injury, by moving into the space not by trying to avoid the sword. This was profoundly effective and I really got the concept in avoiding the assault. Since time seemed to be ‘attacking’ me, I decided to apply the principle. I have been amazed at the sense of clarity and calm this new approach has brought. And guess what…. I have been on time every time I have tried it!

So how do I do this? When driving, I focus beyond the traffic and the lights, when working I focus on the space and time not on all I still want to fit into the time. When dealing with children and the many demands per minute they make on my concentration, I focus on the quiet between their words. I feel calmer and more serene and I am on time! Let’s see where this takes me. What do you find?

Well this is day 2 of the time journey and I am writing it on day 3…. So clearly the matter remains unsolved, yet I have had some interesting thoughts in answer to my intention of understanding time differently. Here they are for you to peruse.

 Prioritising is key and you have to live every part of every day according to your own value system. Knowing your own values is key and you have to remind yourself of them several times a day until they are firmly entrenched in your mind in their own neural pathway. So I have discovered that I am often inclined to put physical wellbeing too high up on my priority list and I get stressed about finding time for exercise. It is quite relieving to remember that if I can’t get to it on a specific day it will be fine as long as I am getting to the things I consider to be more important. I can evaluate my week to be sure I have made time for everything I find important in a week, rather than every day.

Having let exercise take a back seat on Monday in favour of finishing some work and spending quality time with my children, time opened up on Tuesday. So my motto is: Choose today and make a different choice tomorrow if you need to.

I am in my 40’s and I am looking at my incredible life and wondering how did I get this far and how did I manage to manifest so many of my dreams. But the gratitude is punctuated by a sense of disquiet and disconsolateness that comes from my fear of not getting it all packed in and of having to live with the pressure I so often feel churning inside of me dissipating the experiences.

I had coffee with a friend on Friday and she turned as I approached her from behind, sensing my presence and arrival, rather than seeing it. I was my usual few minutes late and was arriving in my usual harassed fashion. I had finished a consultation, made a trip to the bathroom, grabbed my bag and phone and ‘flown’ from Bryanston to Hyde Park in the fifteen minutes I had booked for the 25 minute trip. I had made good time, as I usually do, whilst making 3 phone calls and applying lipstick. She laughed when I noted her sense of me, saying: ‘not many people walk that fast! It could only have been you.’

In that moment I could have cried even as I tried to laugh. I prayed silently that it did not mean I was not at least a bit spiritual or somewhere on the pathway to enlightenment. I found myself repeating the pattern when we went for dinner at a friend that evening and arrived late and even more stressed out. My partner laughed at me en route to my friend saying, they would have died of surprise if we had come on time and you shouldn’t mess with a winning formula. They knew me this way and they were used to it. Again I found my laugh got stuck somewhere in my gullet. I have to change something. I love to change and am addicted to transformation, but I have no idea how to transform this ‘deficient’ part of me.

So here goes with the time journey, come with me if you will as I try daily and weekly to find the key insights to manifesting infinite time. I will write daily for a few moments and you will feed back to me how you feel about what I have said and together we will solve the mystery. So why should you care what I have to say?  I have the greatest qualification of all…. A lifetime study award from the University of Life on this subject. I have studied quantum physics, hypnosis, psychology, philosophy and have come no closer to shifting this battle. Now we will discover together how to solve the riddle of abundant time in the world today.

In summary for today, I have everything I want in the world except enough time. This is my plight…….I know this is a belief and this journey is about to change my subconscious on this one. Thanks for joining me……..